How Is It Possible?

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his is a “modified” version of the old paiting. I really like the colours, I hope you can see them the same way on your computer. But still, you can spot some sadness and frustration and confusion in there…

There’s almost a straight vertical line in the bottom right corner, which at first I thought was some scanning defect, but it’s not – it’s really there… absolutely unintentionally, it puzzles me. The more I look at it, the more obsessed I become with it – it really looks like a piece digitally cut from somewhere else and placed there.

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Hazy

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can’t believe it’s been 2 weeks since my last post. I realized that I have a really difficult relationship with this blog – never quite felt like “home” – I guess maybe because I was always apprehensive of what I post here and how it might be perceived – I call it perverted perfectionism.

It’s sounds really cinical – my perfectionism that is – since I’m really far from perfect. I’m also very self-critical. See, a really tortured soul. But I really do want to feel at home here…

Today, for so many reasons I feel really lost. Is it OK to be 26 and a half and feel that lost? Soul searching is really exhausting and painful and right now I wish for something that will save me from myself.

That painting that was not done drying – well, at second look I didn’t like it at all. I’ll try and paint another one tomorrow – a better version.

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Thank You!

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ello, wonderful people! I’m sorry I was away for longer that usual. I want to thank you for your comments and letters of care about Felix – I was really touched. Thank you so much! Just to inform you – he’s being spoiled and pampered and is just living the life!

Right now he’s stretching on his new soft pillow bed which I made for him last week. And apart from taking a pill 2 times a day and getting his heart rate measured once in a while, I don’t think he notices any other negative effects…at least I hope so. We (his 2 humans) are the ones that are worried, but I think we are getting used to the situation and just do what we have to do and hope for the best.

I’ll be back tomorrow. I painted another abstract painting, but it’s still drying, so I can’t show it to you just yet…

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With All Your Heart

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ear friends, I know I said I was going to be offline, but I have a very serious reason not to be. Yesterday Felix (our Persian cat) was diagnosed with hypertrophic cardiomyomathy, which is an incurable genetic heart disease.

He was acting really strange in the morning and we took him for a check up to his vet and after a few examinations they told us the news. It is pretty serious and we still don’t know about what stage the condition is in and the prognosis of the treatment. All we know is we spotted the symptoms really early, so let’s hope this is a good sign.

I was devastated, because if you know me just a little bit, you know how much he means to me and how much I love him…with all my heart. Yesterday every time I looked at him my eyes filled with tears and the fear that we might lose him really soon just paralyzed me. But we realized that things like that happen in life and we have to face them with hope, love and determination, so this is what we’re going to do…

Please remember, life is not measured by seconds, it is measured by heartbeats. Don’t let your heart beat in vain…

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Offline

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ell, I’m feeling better now. I’m planning 2 offline days tomorrow and on Friday – I will try to not even turn my computer on. We’ll see what happens.

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