want to thank you for all the comments on my last post. It’s good to know that it’s OK to feel this way. It’s inevitable to compare yourself to others, especially when such a big part of our lives is online for everyone to see.
I think this is such a big part of the problem. I call it “inspiration overload”. Every single day while going through the art & design blogs, online magazines, artist portfolios I see so many amazing things, new ideas, the accomplishments of others – how creative they are, how beautiful and nicely decorated their homes are, how perfectly designed blogs they have, how successful their business is…and I get lost.
And every day I find something new – a new blog, website, artist …and it just piles on that big pile called “Things that I’d also like to do, have, achieve”. And there, underneath is my own poor self, suffocating and trying to set myself free.
Inspiration is important, but it has become such an interference, a constant noise that prevents me from just taking the time and taking a deep breath and saying: “Let’s start from here and we’ll see where this adventure takes me”. Just strip everything down to what I really want, start small and take it from there.
It’s just so difficult when I look at that small start and then look at that big pile and then look again and it just intimidates me into crawling back under it. Yes, I have to compete with myself but I’m so paralyzed with that combination of fake perfectionism and low self-esteem, confronted with these high expectations that I have built for myself in comparing to others, that I can’t move.
So how do I find the strenght to start small? I think it’s a matter of “Retreat and regroup”. Just make the time to clear my mind of all that “inspiration” clutter and build the strenght to stand tall and defend my positions. So, I’m cutting down the time that I spend browsing design blogs, etc. and will try to meditate for at least half an hour every day and just be alone with my thoughts. Do you have any other advices?